I could go on a rant about how I changed what I ate, how active I was and whether I decided to go to class or not. But Occams Razor is pulling me in the other direction. Simply put, I removed the word “whatever” from my vocabulary. But what does this mean?
While thinking about how I lived the first 22.5 years of my life lately, I noticed a trend. I kept using the word “whatever” to make myself feel better. If I didn't want to do an assignment right away or go to class; “ah whatever, I'll do it later”. When I forgot to do that assignment that I put off; “whatever, I didn't need those points, I can still get a B”. I don't feel like studying, “whatever, I know enough to get a C”.
This related to everything in my life. The word “whatever” was used to make myself feel better by dulling the necessity of the task; lying to myself. I don't need to get in perfect shape, whatever, doesn't matter. I forgot my water in the house, whatever, I don't need it. Whatever, whatever, whatever. Now I go back and get my water. I do my homework instead of playing Skyrim or NHL. I get home from my 8AM class and drink some water and go workout. I get up at 6:30AM for my 8AM class, go have a coffee and go to every fucking class. No excuses!
I don't eat what is easy anymore, I eat what is healthy, what is the right choice. I don't take the easy, “whatever” route anymore. I work and work and work and work. I don't make excuses for myself. Now my GPA and stretch marks are still a reminder of my past mistakes, which are some motivators. Having a 0.57 GPA is a hell of a whole and has been rough to dig myself out of. But I have been grinding away and semester after semester it is growing. The stretchmarks aren't going to go away completely, I have accepted this for the most part.
My skin on my stomach is disgusting in my opinion and not as tight and attractive as people who haven't been as hard on their bodies. This I struggle with and it gets me down. But god dammit, I guarantee I am in better shape then most of those guys out there with their “nice” skin. This is where I focus. Making and keeping my body at its optimal functional condition. If I may not look how I am “supposed” to, I will perform far greater then I am expected to. I will be the best, and I will live long while maintaining that.
Don't want to read it? Then take the easy way out and don't. But that behavior will trickle in to the rest of your life. *Whatever*, you don't need to workout today.
EDIT: I'll respond and post pics of before and now, tonight. I'm studying right now for my midterms that are tomorrow afternoon. Thank you all for the comments!
EDIT 2: Thank you all so much for the response! Here are some pics of before and after! Don't laugh too much 🙂 Fat me 1 Fat me 2 Fat me 3 Fat me 4 ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: New me 1 New me 2 New me 3 New me 4